facades of many things

ok.
last night i called my mom..
for d first time in my life, my mom cried bcoz im away for too long.
yes.
she said she cant wait any longer for me to come home..
biasanye sy yg nangis sbb homesick..
ni da terbalik..
i miss u too, mak!
penat pujuk die.
she has disease called "rindu anak2"..
awe moved to perak coz she got a job offer there..
ude comes home every weekend but mak still misses her..
my bro once a fortnight balik n still not sufficient for mak..
along comes quite often but only for a short time, then leave..

see...
sayang seorang ibu kpd anak2 x berbelah bagi, sntiasa berlebihan..
tp mampukah kite sbagai seorg ank utk syg mak mcm tuh skali?
i cried las nite before i slept..
rse x tenang tinggalkn mak kt malaysia..
even sy byk gaduh ngn mak,tp sy adalah org yg mak plg rindu..
sbb even gaduh2, sy mkn ttp nk mak suap..
ptg2 spend time ngn mak..
pg2 brekky ngn mak..

but..
i become much stronger to be independent..
i wana stdy hard so i can get a good job..
nk jd boss..
so i can have more time to be with my parents..

one more thing..
i may look disgustingly normal..
but deep inside, only Allah knows..
i love to listen to all problems and help, but sometimes i also need help..

Ya Allah,
sesungguhnya Kau Maha Mengetahui. Kau tahu seberape byk dugaan yg aku boleh tanggung. I know I can do nothing without You. bantulah aku ke jln yg benar..give me strength..give me opportunities..show me d best way to eternity coz in the end, i wana be with You..

Semoga hari2 yg mendatang mengajar n membimbing aku ke arah kebenaran..