closer T_T

ignore dis post if u nvr felt d hard-to-forget love..but d date is getting closer..May 25..every yr,its hard for me to not remember dis date..its getting harder n harder now..

well, m jz getting too emotional since May 25, 2006..but if u happen to stumble upon my blog,,I'm S.O.R.R.Y, ku amirrul rahman..sumtimes i have to let it out of my chest coz its already fulled and it makes me hyperventilated..

dis is wat i feel:

Takkan lagi aku menunggu
kau hadir di dalam mimpi-mimpiku
puasku mengharapkan dirimu
seperti mereka yang punya cinta

Diriku tanpa dirimu
kau tempuhi penuh bahagia
diriku mahu kau tahu
pedih ini kau tak terasa

Warkahku mengharapkan dirimu
seperti yang aku kenali dulu
setiaku menantikan dirimu
seperti setianya terhadap diriku

Tapiku melepaskan mu
melangkah namun tak berdaya
terusku terus menunggu
cinta yang takkan pernah ada

what's WRONG?

yeah..it has something to do me..
wat is wrong wif me..?

its been 2 days in a row..

I DREAMT of my LATE SISTER (angah)..
in my dream, she looks hepy n always helping me..

#1st dream: she was helping me to find a baju kurung for my other sister's wed n she got loads of baju kurung inside her wardrobe..(mcm semua tone of colors ade..). she gave me a cyan baju kurung n asked me to wear it..kinda weird..

#2nd dream (las nite dream): my Along passed away n i was so grieved..n wen i came home, i saw Angah n she was eating,wif her husband..she smiled at me n i immediately ran to her n cried. she hugged me tite..

i dont know wat is wrong to me..

maybe my nose bleeds more than a week,,every morning..im not scared n i don wana seek doctor. is dis sumthing to do wif angah?hmm..i don know..Allah surely knows, though.

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5 years back: angah suddenly had her nose bled n my mum was so worried..mak forced her to do medical check up n angah refused mak to go with her..she wanted to go alone, so she went to d hospital alone..n it was 8pm but she was not home yet. mak started to worry. mak called her many times but no one picked up d call.. my mum ceaselessly called her n someone was on d line..it was angah n she cried non-stop. mak da jd panic n mak tny angah kt mne. then, she said, "angah xnk balik,mak...angah ade cancer.." my mum even more panic..mak sowh die balik n sejam later,die balik da..both of them cried, ayah diam je dari awl mak bgtau..

n 1 year n few months later: angah passed away..

now u interpret it urself n digest it n try to be in my shoes..

till then.....

follow me

PLEASE DO NOT FOLLOW ME..

PLEASE..

FIND OTHER UNI,,NOT D SAME UNI AS I AM IN NOW!!

its kinda annoying n u r my great competitor..u were d first 1 n u will always b!

hate u!!!

get d hell out of my life!!adoi..sy sgt x suke la..jgn ikut sy lg..

sy da letih nk compete ngn org sprti awk n family awk..

pergila..tolongla~~

uwaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!

a LOOSE END..

yesterday,my fren told me dis one disgusting joke,yet uber-funny.

here it goes:

a guy walks into a bar with his pet monkey. he orders a drink and while he's drinking, d monkey starts jumping all over d place. d monkey grabs some olives off d bar eats em, then grabs some sliced limes n eats em, then jumps on d pool table, grabs d CUE BALL sticks it in his mouth n swallow it whole!

d bartender screams at d guy, "did u c wat ur monkey juz did?" d guy says, "no, wat?" "he juz ate d cue ball off my pool table!" says d bartender. "yeah. dat doesnt surprise me," replies d patron. "he eats everything in sight, d lil twerp. i'll pay for d cue ball n stuff." he finishes his drink, pays his bill n leaves. two weeks later, he's is d bar again, n he has his monkey wif him. he orders a drink n d monkey starts running around d bar again.

while d man is drinking, d monkey finds a cherry on d bar. he grabs it, stick it up his butt, pulls it out, n eats it. d bartender is digusted. "did u see wat ur monkey did now?" "now wat?" asks d patron. "well, he stuck a cherry up his butt, then pulled it out n ate it!" says d bartender.

"yeah. dat doesnt surprise me," replies d patron. "he still eats everything in sight, but ever since he ate dat damn cue ball, he measures everything first!"

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hope u have a gud laugh..release urself from any stressful fastens :) i nearly blew my stomach having dis joke! gud remedy for 1-month away finals awaits for me....weeeee~~~

hormat

de satu kejadian yg amat menyakitkan hati yg tulus mulus ni..

aku kuciwa!!uwaaaaaaaaaaaa~~walaupun bkn aku yg mngalami,,but i can tel,i love to observe..

kejadian ni ditimpa oleh kwn aku..hmmm..knp manusia sng melempiaskn amarah kt org laen..aku tidak suke even aku kdgkala buat bgitu..but hey,,klu skjp n marah kt semua org xpe..jgn nk pilih2 bulu plak!aku tau la bulu2 kwn aku ni sgt cantik ok...tp geram bile tgk si polan melempiaskn nafsu marah kt kwn aku ni sorg je..mentang2 la ea ko kaye,,ko pandai (ktorg pon pandai la!kot..huhu) tp jgn senang2 nk underestimate org yg x suke nk marah balik!

Allah tuh Maha Adil!

aku bagai nk menitiskan air mata ni..kesian aku tgk kwn aku yg sorg ni..even die x rse pape,,tp aku cukup sensitif bai..sedarlah wahai si polan..jgn senang memperlakukan org sebegitu skali..tidak sopan..hormat la semua org..aku tau..ni peringatan utk diri sndri gak..jgn belagak diri tuh sempurna n baek sgt,,xde sape agung selain yg Maha Esa..

Think n be considerate to others coz others have feelings too..

marilah same2 kte berfikir..jgn pndg org luaran shj..tolongla..buka mata..buka juge minda anda semua..aku kalau sedih lagi aku suke pikir dalam2..haiz..maafkn keganasan n kekasaran dlm blog kali ni..aku cume da letih dgn sikap org yg budget sempurna..

feeling good?

i feel good..

i help people n they appreciate it..

i feel good..

when i immediately feel bad if i hurt people..

i feel good..

i jz befriend with people i hate the most..

i feel good..

i love my parents n they love me bak like always..

i feel good..

i keep myself from thinking bad bout people..

im jz feeling good,,ppl!!
peace!
thank God for giving me dis feeling :)