drown in

its been a week ive been lazing around..
yeah..
spring break is here..
so i decided to go to the city!!
it was hell of a week before break, i need something, some place, someone to cheer me up!
i woke up at 6am jz to loiter around sydney..
HAHAHAHA! it was worth it, tho..
took a bus to circular quay n hopped a ferry to manly beach!!

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MANLY BEACH!

strolled along the beach..
watched handsome, tough, gorgeous guys surfing..
took lots of pictures.. :]
wana tell u guys some story behind the scene while camwhoring --->
while i was gona take a picture on some rocks along the beach, there were two dogs!
(u know, im scared of DOGS! hell,u can say im phobia of dogs)
their owner was sun bathing..suddenly, the brown n big dog ran towards me!
AAAAAAHHHH!!!! i screamed like there was a rapist about to rape me..
HELP ME!!! I'M SCARED OF DOGS!!
the dog, out of blue, stoppped n stared at me..
maybe he ( i jz assume its a male coz its fu*king ran towards me like he was looking at a beautiful princess or something..HAHAHA) thought i was his owner!
bloody dog!
nasib baik la kau stop n x gigit aku!
cett..
sgt takut ok..
he went back playing (doing watevs they did before) with the other dog..
phewww!
it was sooooo close!
my last resort was jumping in the water behind me!
it was a great experince, tho..
dog becomes my number one enemy in the world!

before that, there was another incidence when i was strolling along the beach..
there was a huge white n black dog sniffing my back!
hate dogs!
nasib baik x kene baju lg..
klu x, kne samak da!
HAHAHA..

SYDNEY CITY - Darling Harbour n other places

enjoying the city scenics from opera house..
went to chinese garden, saw ppl kissing down their throats publicly..
enjoy watching dat too! free show!
HAHAHA..
went to mamak n ordered teh tarik, cendol n chicken murtabak..
sedap la..coz its been 8 months i didnt taste any malaysian food which totally tasted like mamaks in malaysia..
it was a very long q..
the restaurant open at 5.30 n we came at 5.10, but stil i was d second person to q..
it still worth d waiting! hilang kempunan da :]
loitered in ernst n young building..

before dat we all stopped at paddy's market..
window shopping n stuff..
n we went to game arcade n played!
sgt2 best!!
we played n we get gift ticket which at the end i could claim gifts..
i got 144 points of gift ticket!
i claimed a piggy bank, bracelet n pocket game!
it was so much FUN!

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i wish i could have dat moment over n over agn..
feel like i was a kid agn..

that's all for today's entry..
enjoy life, peeps..
till then!

reality is scary

haaa....im in a deep, big pool of stress!!
yes..
stress!
i have 2 tests this thursday; ECON241 and DEM127.
i have no idea wat we have been through for d past 6 weeks in ECON241 lectures..
what i mean is, we barely understand what d lecture talked about..
her greek accent is killing me!
n easy things turn out to be the hardest parts of all!
y cant her teach us the easiest way??
y make things complicated??
now i need to dig out my STAT170 notes to understand n to match all the skills & knowledge i learnt last sem with ECON241..

second major problem is...
i gain weights!!
maybe some of u think it is just a minor flaw..
to me, i lost one chance of happiness n confidence..
from 45kg, i gain 7 kilos in 6 months!
hell~~
i realy dont know how to loose this flat tyre around my belly n thighs..
this double chin n chubby cheecks..
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~
mcm mane ni!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


not to forget, happy eid mubarak, peeps..
i wana take this chance to seek forgiveness from all of u..
lead a happy healthy life people..
stay young, stay cool :D

toodles~~

nothing much

nothing much..nothing new..
im sick of it, yet im still chasing it..
WTH..
ppl said,waiting is d best thing I can do rite now..

yeah rite..
nothing is the best for now..
to me, it is new even its already over..
it is the past but im still waiting for it to be in the future..
i hate it..

it's best to leave it behind..
promise to urself, mira..
leave it behind..
for it may forever stop chasing u n ur life..
stop..
n promise to forever stop thinking bout it..


p/s: i hope i'll never remember what it is..

ripple effect

da byk hari di ats dunia ni, byk juge ilmu n pengalaman sy dpt..
with more knowledge gained, means im getting dumber than before..
y is dat so..?
well..
i do feel so n i know so..
because its me..

i know me but still not enough..

i cannot sleep well..
i let myself indulge in the spree of reflection-ness..
full of dark spots on the mirror, need to be cleared..
sigh..
tired..
im thinking of looking at the stars thru my window..
i look up n there...
i see the moon..
saying goodnight to me..

oh Allah..
You create one thing dat ppl dont really want it so much..
ppl always look for things they dont get..
but dat one thing You created actually gives ppl more than they actually need..
ppl jz need to think deep n reminisce things they already had..
how ppl cannot be so grateful to The Creator..
dont ask for things dat u dont know it might hurt n endanger u in the future..
Allah has the best plan for us..
jz work things up n do our part..
say a prayer, close ur eyes n beg for His mercy..


How i could be so ungrateful..
moon is so much better than stars..
even if stars can be so much beautiful, brighter, bigger than moon,
but looking from my window, it could be so much better jz to look at the moon..
if i wana see the stars, i might have to go outside n might catch a cold n have a better chance of not going to class tomorrow..

sometimes,
it could be a small thing happen in your life,
but it might have a ripple effect that u might not even think of..
grab the opportunities that might not have given u a greater impact,
but think..
it might have given u less hassle n danger n risk n etc.
AND it might have given u much greater impact in other doings..
believe in Allah..


have a good day, peeps!
toodles~

fake the funk

sometimes I'm only faking d funk to survive in dis life..

its not d main topic for today's entry..

i'd rather have some small island for me jz to find more than calmness..
haiz..smlm n harini kinda sucks..
i feel like crying n i dont think all dat stinky probs deserve any drop of my tears..
i can be smiling all day without u know wats in my lil heart..
sy x berkira n sy masih lg mncuba utk x berkira skrg..
don test my limit..
I could be the meanest person u ever met..
tolongla..
sy pon ade keje sy sndri..
i hv tutes to be done too..
i need my own time to revise things too..
please...
jgn smpy sy jerit tengking2 kt "org berkenaan"..
jgn sbb ade maid kt uma (kt malaysia) da jdkn certain org cm kuli batak kamu pule yer..
I'm so lenient rite now coz I hope "org berkenaan" boleh la jd org btggungjawab..
ni cm da kndang babi da tgk..
da bersih mst jd cm pigsty balik..

maaf..
xde perkataan elok I can use..

kemalasan pon de tahap ok!
jgn malas sgt cm per..
org laen sume de keje..

easy

I wish it could be much easier than this..
Its juz one of my past chapters in life n it can be such a good reference in future..
Hoping but no great effort been made, is hoping in a very stupid way..
I hope n I do my part, then Allah will absolutely see dat I work hard enough, for my wish to be granted..
If things didnt work out, dont go away from the right path as I may turn out to be worse..
To be good (real good), I hv to be persistent..
To be dat persistent, I hv to accept many things, good or bad..
I hv to say "no" to many things..
I am trying..
Dont push me too hard; so i can change, from bad to good..
I am trying more than u know..
U may not see..
But I jz believe in Allah as He is the only one can see im changing..
Its not easy, not dat easy as some of u pushing me like it can be transformed in a minute..
I mean that it - dark side of me..
U can be so judgemental but it's me..


Have a good day ppl! to muslims, selamat mnjalankn ibadah puasa :)

facades of many things

ok.
last night i called my mom..
for d first time in my life, my mom cried bcoz im away for too long.
yes.
she said she cant wait any longer for me to come home..
biasanye sy yg nangis sbb homesick..
ni da terbalik..
i miss u too, mak!
penat pujuk die.
she has disease called "rindu anak2"..
awe moved to perak coz she got a job offer there..
ude comes home every weekend but mak still misses her..
my bro once a fortnight balik n still not sufficient for mak..
along comes quite often but only for a short time, then leave..

see...
sayang seorang ibu kpd anak2 x berbelah bagi, sntiasa berlebihan..
tp mampukah kite sbagai seorg ank utk syg mak mcm tuh skali?
i cried las nite before i slept..
rse x tenang tinggalkn mak kt malaysia..
even sy byk gaduh ngn mak,tp sy adalah org yg mak plg rindu..
sbb even gaduh2, sy mkn ttp nk mak suap..
ptg2 spend time ngn mak..
pg2 brekky ngn mak..

but..
i become much stronger to be independent..
i wana stdy hard so i can get a good job..
nk jd boss..
so i can have more time to be with my parents..

one more thing..
i may look disgustingly normal..
but deep inside, only Allah knows..
i love to listen to all problems and help, but sometimes i also need help..

Ya Allah,
sesungguhnya Kau Maha Mengetahui. Kau tahu seberape byk dugaan yg aku boleh tanggung. I know I can do nothing without You. bantulah aku ke jln yg benar..give me strength..give me opportunities..show me d best way to eternity coz in the end, i wana be with You..

Semoga hari2 yg mendatang mengajar n membimbing aku ke arah kebenaran..